Poetry Break by John (Jake) Cosmos Aller

‘Poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings: it takes its origin from emotion recollected in tranquillity.’ ~William Wordsworth~

One Crazy Day

Last night

I could not get to sleep

At all

Last night

I could not get to sleep

At all

I looked up

Looked out at the window

At the full moon

Saw by its lunatic light

Your face

Was in the moon

And I looked up

At the light

That crazy light

And dreamed

I was with you

Again

And I woke up

Again

And I woke up

Alone in my bed

Dreaming dark dreams

Of You

Wishing it were

Other than it was

All alone

All alone again

In this world

Dragon Fly in My Mind

Dragon flies in the gardens

Of my mind

Floating amid the flowers
And the weeds

That infects the garden of my mind

The flowers bloom bright

Attracting butterflies

The demon weeds

Sprout here and there

Screaming

Look at me

Trying to spread

Their poisonous thoughts

Their negativity

Throughout the garden

That is the mind

In the temple

That is the body

The body

Of a man

Made in the image of God

The dragonfly flies above

The chaos and the sonic soup

That makes up

The inner sound

Of the mind

The dragonfly

Is majestic

In its indifference

To the turmoil down below

It floats above

The sonic soup

And the butterflies

Float amid the flowers

The bugs and cockroaches

Crawl out of the weeds

Trying to spread like wild fire

Through the mind

And at night

I can hear them

Crawling among the web pages

Of my mind

Be gone

Oh difficult, negative thoughts

Be gone

Like the bugs

You are

I’ll squash you like

The evil creatures

You really are

The sweat music

Invades my soul

Driving away

The evil bugs

And I soar

Like the majestic

Dragon fly

Far above

The chaos below

Only seeing the beauty

That fills up

The garden of my mind

One can choose

To be the dragon fly

Or to be consumed

And turned into the cockroach

Of death, despair and hate

And I fly

Far away

Above

The sound of silver trumpets

Silver sound

Suspended forever

In the pink crystalline sky

Of my mind

Let us fly away

Into the deep night

On the wings of the cosmic dragon fly

And leave behind, forever

The cockroaches of my mind

Reflections

One dismal night

One lousy, lonely, loathsome demented night

In a god forsaken bar

In the global south

In a tropical hell hole

Drinking my way to hell

As fast as I could

Drinking alone with my buddies

Jack Daniels, Jimmy Walker

Wild Turkey and Old Grandad

I sat alone in the bar

Alone with my dismal thoughts

Full of somber thoughts

Dismal reflections

Thinking dismal thoughts

Of what I was going to do

Where I was heading to

Where I was coming from

I had no clue

No idea at all

Where my future path lay

So, I sat

Drinking alone in the bar

Twenty drinks too sober

I considered my beer

Just another middle age looser

Crying into his beer

I saw my reflection

In the glass of beer

I saw an old man

Staring back at me

A lonely man

A stranger staring at me

I looked at this man

This stranger

That I had become

And wondered

What the hell had happened to me

During my life

I stared at the old man

In the beer glass

Wondering to myself

Where did this old man come from

What the hell did he want from me

Who the fuck was he

And what was he doing

In my god damned beer

So I decided

To speak my god damned mind

I said

Say old man

In my beer glass

Come on out of there

Come to life

Old dude

And talk to me

I want to know

Who the fuck you are

And what you are doing

In my beer

Come to life

Let me see

Whom I am going to be

The old man grinned

And laughed the laugh

Of the insane

The laugh of the newly Enlighted ones

Who finally realized the absurdity of existence

And then he looked at me

With a thousand-year stare

And transformed himself

Morphed into a hideous snarling beast

A werewolf stared at me

And he growled

So punk

You want to know

What I am doing in your beer

Well it is like this

Dude

I am the ghost of your past

And I am here to show you

What you have done

And what you have failed to do

With your miserable life

So, let the show begin

I saw one by one

Parading across my beer

All the people I have known

All my friends

All my enemies

All my casual acquaintances

And most importantly

All the women I had ever know

All the women I had ever lusted after

All of them came out

One by one

They stopped and told me

What they really thought of me

Of my foolish pride

My foolish behavior

My folly

My sexual desires

MY lust

And one by one they judged me

A jury of my peers

And they found me guilty

As charged

SS came by

My first real love

MM too

SG as well

CP was there

Miss K

Miss CDN

The perfect lover of the east

Who fled away

From my protestations of love

And Angela

The one and only

Who married me

And still is proud

To be my wife

And the parade continued

Nameless bar girls

With whom I had consorted

Spent a night of aimless sex

One by one they came by

Commending me

Laughing at me

SB came by

Khun J

She with the great voice

Came by

Khun M came by

As did the GM

And on and on and on

The four A’s in Bombay

The one I almost had

The ones that broke my heart

And allowed my creative juices

To run wild

And others

Who remains nameless

By choice

The boss came by

As did the other ones

Everybody looking at me

I stopped

Stood up

Scream

Stop this torture

Stop it right now

Mr. Beer God

Or Devil

Whoever you may be

Nothing but the laughter

Of the damn

Echoing across the room

I looked up

They were all there

In the room

Looking at me

I stood up

And tried to touch them

Nothing but illusions

Nothing there

I cried into my beer

The anguished cry of the damned

Just another fool

Crying into his beer

Did I have the courage

The wisdom to make amends

Did I know

What I had to do

Did I have the courage

To quit lusting

Over what I cannot have

To accept

That all the love

I need

Is in my wife’s eyes

And in her heart

And so I looked the beer god

In the eye

And dranked my beer

And walked out the door

Confidently facing the future

Free of doubts

Full of love

And proud of all I had done

Knowing that I was not guilty

Of the crimes charged

Author’s Bio:

John (Jake) Cosmos Aller

John (“Jake”) Cosmos Aller is a novelist, poet, and former Foreign Service officer having served 27 years with the U.S. State Department in ten countries – Antigua, Barbados, Dominica, Grenada, Korea, India, St Kitts, St Lucia, St Vincent, Spain, and Thailand. and traveled to 45 countries during his career. Jake has been an aspiring novelist for several years and has completed three novels, (Giant Nazi Spiders, the Great Divorce, and Jurassic Cruise) and is pursuing publication. He has been writing poetry all his life and has published his poetry in electronic poetry forums, including All Poetry, Moon Café, and Duane’s Poetree and literary magazines. He is looking forward to transitioning to his third career – full-time novelist and poet after completing his second career as a Foreign Service officer, and his first career as an educator overseas for six years upon completion of his Peace Corps service in South Korea.

Links:

Linkinlin: https://kr.linkedin.com/in/jakealler

http://www.Writing.Com/authors/Jcosmos

http://www.poetrysoup.com/me/jakecosmos

http://www.moontowncafe.com/members/view_profile.asp?id=28083

https://allpoetry.com/Jake_Aller

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