By Anel Conradie
When we find ourselves in the ‘no-space’ of creativity, we are moved to create something much more human; much more real. We are moved to create something raw; something deeply personal. Having personally moved through this space, I’ve identified 5 phases to describe the process.
Phase 1 – Doubt Definition
“A feeling of being uncertain about something or not believing something.”
Doubt also gives rise to feelings of uncertainty, confusion, hesitation, suspense, indecision, hesitancy, lack of conviction, irresolution.
According to my experience, doubt:
- Is triggered by unexpected circumstances.
- Occurs when things go wrong when we least expect it.
- Is created when we feel completely out of control.
- Arise when we are unpredictably pushed into the abyss of the unknown.
- Persists when we see no way out of our present, potentially threatening, circumstances.
The procedure of getting out of this state of doubt greatly varies from person to person. However, I do believe that our minds are greatly able to adjust and navigate us through this process.
Creating out of Doubt
It is seemingly impossible to create something of value when we are trapped in a state of doubt. When we doubt situations and things around us, we tend to become slightly paralyzed. In a state of not-being-sure-of-the-next-step, or when we do not know what this new situation will hold, the last thing we think about is being creative.
However, though nothing physical is being created during this time, what happens in our minds and thought processes should not be underestimated.
Doubt creates a subtle way of starting new ways of evaluating and analysing circumstances. It forces the mind to slowly and surely find new pathways to adapt to these unexpected conditions which seem to have been forced on us. (Your ability to adapt to these circumstances and to actually work through them will eventually reap fruit at the end of phase 5 – Silence.)
During these new mental processes, innovative questions are formulated to help us find a fresh way of looking at situations.
Doubt vs. Hope
Often in our state of doubt, questions will be raised which leads us into Phase 2 – Fear. As we begin to analyse our new situations, questions are raised that we might never have thought of in the past. More often than not, these questions scare us. Because, honestly, we are treading on unfamiliar ground and it is not “natural” to be in this disruptive environment. These questions are however crucial in the creative process of moving us from one phase through to the next.
During this phase of doubt, false hope also has a tendency to make itself known. This is a hope that the circumstances we find ourselves in right now might actually not be true. It is a hope that we’ll wake up to life as we knew it, before tragedy struck and our world was turned upside down. But, truth be told, things will never return to the way it was.
Therefore, out of doubt, created by unforeseen circumstances, we have to find a way forward: even if that means moving into a state of fear.
Being a creative implies that there is a much more complex state of creating than just our physical craft of creation. It all starts in the mind. And, when we find ourselves in this phase of doubt, it is crucial that our minds learn to look at complex situations in a much more creative way.
Often in this state of doubt, we might feel like we have nothing to give or to create, but there is a creative process that is developing, which will lead us to a new creativity of much more depth and value.
Anel is a freelance writer, editor, and proofreader. With a background in teaching English literature and language she now pursues her own writing career. She is an Alumna of Stellenbosch University, in Cape Town.
Growing up in Namibia, Anel has a deep appreciation of the vastness of nature which echoes the vastness of humanity. “I love to write about the complexity of our humanity and that which forms our very core identity.”
Anel has been married for 7 years and has one daughter. The journey of being a wife and a mom has also inspired her to write about, and share, her own experiences. She is currently working on her first book: “10 Lies we believe about marriage.”
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