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Writer’s Angst

“Cheat your landlord if you can and must, but do not try to shortchange the Muse. It cannot be done. You can’t fake quality any more than you can fake a good meal.” ~William S. Burroughs~ Click To Tweet

By LadyCee


It all started with a motivational speaker.

I’d been listening to his rousing rhetoric and decided to follow his advice regarding positive affirmations, as a strategy for achieving success. Call me gullible if you like, but I found myself thinking: yeah, I’ll try that.

So, feeling self-conscious, I began speaking to myself. I said: I shall be an accomplished, prolific, and successful writer. But nothing happened!

Not surprising really, I suppose, since writing is a verb, and a verb signifies action. I then realized that talking alone just wasn’t going to cut it.

So, I began considering various authors who’ve already achieved success. I noted Stephen King’s actions spoke rather eloquently for him. His written works proclaimed him as a talented novelist.

The Writer’s Formula for Success

After looking at the achievements of other popular writers, I stumbled upon a scarce-mentioned mathematical equation. Perhaps you are familiar with this formula:  declaration of dreams + deeds + diligence = achievement. Declaration of dreams – deeds – diligence = zilch!

Perhaps you are familiar with this formula: declaration of dreams + deeds + diligence = achievement. Declaration of dreams - deeds - diligence = zilch! Click To Tweet

Dear reader, I was flabbergasted. I had no choice but to seriously consider this equation. So, I began to add deeds (here read draft manuscripts), to my positive affirmations. You’d think that’s all I’d need to do, wouldn’t you? Just get on with writing. But, oh no! There’s got to be this perpetual undermining of my creative output.

Each time I put pen to paper (sounds grand doesn’t it? – in reality it’s fingers to keyboard), I’m forced to referee my internal opponents whilst they wrestle like precocious twins within my creative womb. Both desire pre-eminence.

The Inner-Family Feud

Meet Lady Cee, Internal Critic – pious, proud, pedantic. And this here is Carol, Creative Director – witty, intelligent, yet, sometimes lacking in confidence. She wants complete freedom to exercise her poetic license. Now, it’s obvious to me that I need both characters in order to produce a body of well-written works—but can I get them to agree? Will they work in harmony with each other? No Siree!

Scenario. Fingers fly across the keyboard trying to document creative Carol’s thoughts as fast as I can. Enter condescending critic, Lady Cee: You can’t say that! Or, oh dear, you seem to have forgotten to cross the “t’s” and dot the “i’s.”  

So, I stop mid-flow and start analyzing. Surprising how the impassioned soul considers purple prose powerful or pleasing, but a cold, critical eye can calmly strip overdressed sentiments.

Now, whilst this goes on, creative Carol feels snubbed or abandoned. Nose out of joint, she suddenly bombards me with fresh ideas or vivid phrases. I make moves to follow her lead, aware from bitter experience that if I don’t capture these gems in time, they’ll sulk and slink off to the “Elusive Zone” at the back of my brain.

However, guess whose domineering voice interjects once again? You got it! My inner critic. Cut and polish my dear, she insists. Your creative urges can wait – I’ll shear most of it anyway!

Aaargh! Will no one deliver me from this creative ordeal? At this rate, I won’t get anything done.

The Peace Treaty

Now, I bet all you writing veterans, smiling away out there, would just love to know how I dealt with my intractable co-workers. Wanna know how I’ve tried to resolve this issue?

Simple! I set up a peace treaty.

You see, I remembered Roger Sperry’s theory about how the two sides of our brains operate. Bearing this in mind, I wrote and ratified the “Cee-Writes-It” peace treaty. It sets out the terms of my new writing regime.

Creative Carol is granted an unbridled opportunity to express herself. I wait until she has exhausted all her ideas, and only then do I invite the opinion of Lady Cee (aka Internal Critic). That way more work gets done, and all parties are happy (at least that’s the theory). Teamwork you see.

Phew! It’s jolly hard work this peace-keeping business. I think I’ll just chill out for a wee while—now where’s that motivational video…?

Hey – don’t look at me like that! I deserve a break!


Carol Hind (Ladycee)



I’d describe myself as a God-seeker and recovering perfectionist. I’d also like to consider myself as a word-artist, although my husband often refers to me as a word-junkie! Now, as you’ve probably guessed, I love reading and I love words. I’m fascinated by and admire the way skilled writers use them and, I’ve long cherished a desire to join the ranks of prolific published writers, whose words are feted, followed and feasted upon by fans and word connoisseurs.

Prior to me becoming a blogger, I failed to apply myself to the joys of writing and publishing consistently, despite always declaring (to myself anyway) that writing is my passion!

Words are powerful! They have the potential to impart life or orchestrate death. And so my heart’s desire is for the ultimate creator and wordsmith to use my writing gift, infuse my words with his anointing, love, and power. I write to encourage and inspire both myself and others—to maximize our potential and live our best lives.




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Published posts on Two Drops of Ink:

1) Poetry Break by Carol Hind (Ladycee)

2) Will the Real Writer Please Step Forward?

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  1. Ladycee. Great post on writing and creative process! It is very obvious you are working hard at your craft and also working hard at sharing your process. Thank you!

    • Thank you fellow writer!

      I’m pleased my efforts to improve my craft and share my words have been noticed.

      I’m not sure whether the fault is with my device but I cannot see your gravatar so forgive me for not addressing you by name.
      Many thanks for reading and blessing me with your response and apologies for the delayed response.

    • Thank you Michelle for reading and leaving me your comment. I am so sorry for the delayed response. I happened to be re-reading my old posts at Two Drops and noticed some new comments.

      Pleased to hear you were laughing along with me and enjoyed my post. Always music to my ears.

  2. Hello all,

    May I just say how much I appreciate your comments which have surprised and warmed my heart. I always find it a little scary letting other writers see my work but you are such a lovely bunch of people at Two Drops. I am going to bed this evening a very happy bunny! 😃😊

    • Hello Maryjom,

      Thank you so much for reading and for encouraging feedback. I will certainly try my best to keep the peace treaty going!

    • Ha! Ha! 😁
      Your admission has made me laugh out loud and I can relate. Thanks for your lovely encouragement Jayne and thanks for reading. I’m glad you enjoyed the piece.

  3. Hi, Carol and Ladycee – the fighting twins. I have Mighty Marilyn and Mouse Marilyn. Mouse is scared, cautious, and squeaky. Mighty is prolific, witty, and knows the proper use of a semi-colon. (Aside to Scott). They each have voice in my head, and I’m so glad to know that you, too have the same inner conflict.

    I liked this post – a lot. So did Mighty and Mouse, and when they agree on something that’s good.

    • Thank you so much Marilyn – that means a lot to me to hear you say this. As for Mighty and Mouse please thank them also. Happy to hear my post was a cause of agreement between them.

      I wonder if there ever comes a point in a writer’s life where there is no more inner conflict?

  4. I loved this LadyCee! I’ve often heard that the best humor is based on truth. And so it is with your brilliant use of humor here! So much truth – I can totally identify with. And the humor – I can certainly laugh along with you! Oh how I hate that inner critic! I’m so glad you found a way to make your creative self and inner critic peacefully co-exist – I am still trying! Thank you for this humorous, yet very real look into the writing process!

    • Dear Terry,
      Wow! Thanks so much for this wonderful feedback. I’m glad you enjoyed this piece and appreciate the humour. Your response means a lot to me. Bless you.

  5. LadyCee,
    One of the best part of this essay was your satire and self-deprecating humor. That said, so many writers, I think, can relate to this post. These types of posts are invaluable to the new and seasoned writer in terms of knowing that we all go through these times of tough inner dialogue.

    • Hello Scott,

      My thanks to you for agreeing to publish this piece. And thanks also for your positive feedback. I’m so pleased both beginners and seasoned writers are able to enjoy my post.

  6. Thanks so much for writing this. It was a huge relief to have confirmation, I am not totally nutty, (well not as much as some people believe anyway.) My writing partner is Mary Margaret and she is not as helpful as yours.

    • Dear JoAnn,

      Thank you so much for reading and leaving me your comment. No you are not nutty! It took a little while for me to whip my writing partner into place and she is still apt to play up at times, so do persevere with yours and show her who’s the boss 😉

    • Dear Aida (apologies I am working on my Kindle which does not have the accented “i”).
      Thank you for reading and taking the time to leave me your comment, which is most appreciated.
      I’m so happy you found the post humorous and your feedback is encouraging.

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